Crush Crash!

You are,

More than physical presence

You are energy.

Your color is

Warm and cold,

Bright red or grey 

Depending on the day

Or it could really be

Dependant on "MY" mood that day

And how I choose to perceive you.

Overthinking is naturally

Akin to me

So unfortunately

On your warm days

I am cheery 

And up-beat all through the day

And on the cold ones

I fall faster than Newton's apple

Into this deep state 

Of winter:..cold, dark and empty

Almost nothing can get me out of it.

How wonderful..and

Petrifying it really is

For me to be aware of all this

But be completely still

And helpless

Whenever you're around me.

I often worry about

The kind of power 

You could yield

If you knew the effect you had on me.

What you could decide

To make me do.

I...can't help but cringe 

At the thought of being completely

At your mercy.

This is..

Destabilizing.. confusing,

Exciting and thrilling

All at once.

Kinda makes you wonder

About the human anatomy.

I mean.. your aura..

Like clock work

Influences my mind..

The chemicals my mind induces

Influence my emotions

And they in turn cause my body

To react..

I literally have no choice in the matter.

My Being..

Soaked in endorphins,

May have given in

But my actions atleast

Have some wiggle room still.

I can choose to..

Let you in

N surrender to you

All the power you could yield.

Swaying me as you wish

On your warm and cold days

Or...

I could enjoy this feeling

For what it is

A simple crush

And allow myself to just

Feel and release.